Pride

Pride

Wednesday, 19 November, 2025

6:37 AM

 

It's hard to admit pride and I have been prideful about my health.  Now I see it and wish I would have never held that pride.  That pride has cost me dearly as I have now been diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes and Chronic Heart disease.  Not to mention, obesity.  My health life was unremarkable as the OHSU Neurosurgeon said back in 2018.  At that time I had nothing wrong except 20 extra pounds and a small Meningioma tumor, which he took out.  Fast forward, my complacency and pride took me from that to today.  A short 7 years!

 

Today I hear the Lord speaking to me of my pride.  Like the Tribes of Israel, I stopped listening to God.  I stopped treating my temple, my body, as the dwelling place of the Holy Spirit.  I left it untended and unloved.  I am the only one to blame for what is happening to me today.  My body is 71 years old and is suffering from my pride and my abuse of it.

 

I spent an hour with a doctor yesterday telling me of all the different medications I will now be on for the rest of my life.  I am so undisciplined and taking pills every day is going to be hard for me.  I could not even take vitamins every day let alone lifesaving drugs.  Lord, help me!  When I went into this a month ago I was taking zero prescription medications.  Today I have five. Two heart meds, a cholesterol med and two meds for water retention which harms my heart.

 

There is quite a list of what causes diabetes but the only two that pertain to me are extra weight and a sedentary life style. I asked the doctor how I could exercise when I get out of breath so easily and she said it will take some time to get my heart pumping better then I could exercise so for now it is getting salt and sugar out of my diet including carbohydrates which turn to sugar.  Everything I put into my mouth now matter to my life.  If I want to live I have to change.  I want to live Lord!

 

Proverbs 16:18 says;

Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.

 

The Contemporary English Version says, "Too much pride will destroy you."

 

The Message Bible says, "First pride, then the crash - the bigger the ego, the harder the fall."

 

I would never have thought pride was one of my characteristics but today I see it clear as a bell.  My health and my body I took completely for granted and was so lazy about it.  I told everyone I did not like to sweat but that sweat could have saved me from all of this.  I had a desk job most of my life and then lived a life just like the chair that sat at that desk.

 

I am hoping and praying today that I can stop any further destruction of my body and that the Lord sees my repentance from pride and allows some healing and some extra time.